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Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Back to square one

It's been a long time since I've blogged. The darn library computer forbidened this site, so I couldn't update.

Jenn led worship.
Heng Heng found me.
Here I am thinking that
Liang finds me all crazy.
No guts to say a simple hi
They just pass like a bye.
How sweet Ron can be
I wish that he would be like me.

Haha. We have our class blog. Blah blah. Met my "kor", Abel on the 912 bus yesterday. Ron was late and we have not met at the interchange for the pass few days. I still owe him his birthday song..

I took the bus with Yikun instead. wah. But he is cute lah - no wonder Ron likes HIM. Too bad he isn't the one that will have a kind forgiving heart - I pity his sister. I didn't even dared to say hi to him when he was beside me this morning.

Hail to Papa Azim.

nelle eats world @ 1:31 AM | squished Ron before I died

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

RON-ANCING ROMANCE

Hahahahahaha! I just can't stop thinking about what happened today! Wahaha! I can't stop thinking about Ron! Hahahaha.

I used to hit, squish, slap, strangle and on one occasion, made Ron bleed. I was so sorry for my actions though. Hey, Ron used to call me goat and stuff - and that made my blood boil and erm.. Gave me a chance to get close to him? Well, hah! These are all just lame to me now! Ron and I are starting to become.. well, pretty good friends. He doesn't go around teasing me that much. Well, maybe hardly at all! But sometimes, and rarely, if he does, I just be the joke and laugh at myself. After all, I don't want Ron to shy away from me or think otherwise of my unruly behaviour. I did all that just to gain his attention - and that I found, was really NOT ME at all. As for my hunched back, there is nothing I can do about it right now. I'm like that. I don't know why.

I like Ron for the way he is. His friends say that he is super annoying and irritating; but on the other hand, I think this is what that makes him special to me. Yes, it is. Like me: an irritant beyond apprehension. Apart from that, people say he looks girly - but hey, that's what makes him cute! His face, sosoft, so innocent.. You feel as if you want to squish his cheeks. And his fluffy, bushy, shabby hair makes him look abit more of the "cool" type. Well, his only flaw is his height. Buit guess what? He's starting to grow taller already! Ever since Hila and I started calling him "Giant" instead of "Elf" so that he will grow. We call Hidir "Elf" and not "Giant" anymore because Hidir continued growing until the height of 190cm! Well, that sure helped both parties.. At the beginning of the year, Ron was about half a head shorter than me but now, he is just a ruler's breadth shorter than me - he's even taller than Hila now!

Ron helped me with all the props carrying during rehearsals today. Aw.. He's so sweet. Only the part where he tried to help but I got hurt by the arm chair. He was playing chinese chess with Jie Lun and Jian Hui backstage and hmmpz... Ignored me for awhile. But hey, he wanted to play English chess with me! But then we found out that the board was missing a line of squares so we ended up not playing.

I liked it when Ron wrapped me around the curtains while waiting for a particular scene to end so that we can change the props. At one point he pulled the front of my shirt together with the curtain.. Haha. And I had to grope or poke him through the curtains for him to stop. If not,he would have touched.. Er, nevermind. Ron also nearly hugged me when he tryed wrapping the curtain around me. I could feel his arm around me waist - thank God the curtain was there!

Ron also sang the Happy Tree Friends theme song and kept asking me to tell him about the episodes I have watched. Haha. Ron made me another "Mr Job's brain" because I sort of squished the one he made for me yesterday in the bus.

Ron's nose bled today because he was rushing to get out of the scene after setting the props in order as we were only given 10 seconds. He ran into the curtains and he didn't know that Tilaban was behind. So when Ron got through, Tilaban suddenly stuck out his elbow and that struck Ron's nose. I didn't know anything until I wanted to ask Ron about the settling of the props for the next scene. I saw him there, at the far end hoding his nose and had his specs removed. He looks as if he was going to cry, but he didn't. His face was just red though.

Hmpz.. Uncivillised barbarians. How dare they laugh at Ron when he was hurt and bleeding!? I was nearly going to cry and I felt so useless standing there and not doing anything. I just didn't know how to express care 'cos this might make Ron feel awkward. *sigh* At least I'm on my way. 40% there.

At least Ron's brave. He didn't want any of us to tell Miss Hesley about his injury. Still carried on helping me move the props despite his poor nose. Such a guy. that's what make him so great!

Ron and I carried the trees back to the Staff Workroom together with Fida. It's a pity and no excitement because Ron didn't toy with her bottle. I left with him but er, I don't know where Fida went.

I crossed the road with Ron and well, took the bus together. At the opposite side of the road, Ron asked me if his bag's shape looked funny. Well, indeed it was and one side was er.. "Distorted". So he told me to hold his textbooks for him so that he can check on his bag. Well, that's nice. Haha. Although I'm somewhat doing "labour work" for him but it was nice. And I held his bag for him to see too. Well, we boarded the bus and suprisingly, Ron told me that was Ziyang and Alina across the road at the other bustop!

Well, there was no seats left on the bus and Ron found one. I stupidly asked, and I know the answer but I so wanted to... " Wher am I suppose to sit?" But Ron sacarstically replied, "Not here." and he placed his books on the other seat. I had to sit at the one seat left behind him.

But I was very pleased, elated, touched, happy..Whatever.. When Ron said, "Aiyah, sit here lah. Very boring leh." And he removed his books and let me sit right next to him. *whee*

So we got down at the interchange to "run after" the bus, 912. Ron was like "My bus! My bus!". Haha. Then he told me to run after the bus for him 'cos his legs hurt or somewhat cramped. I told him I was going to the library. Ron shivered in the bus and he said he could feel the clot in his nose. I got off and I could still see Ron cuddling himself out there.

He told me that he wasn't attending school tomorrow.

*weep*

nelle eats world @ 6:09 PM | squished Ron before I died

Sunday, July 11, 2004

DANIEL, JEM AND JENN.

Oh yes. Even though it wasn't my favourite pastor, Pastor Ronald who preahed today, but hey, Pastor Chris Long's pretty funny too. Wah, Jenn wore his "Superman" logo T-shirt and surprised me by sying my name? Er, yah. I'm sort of stupid to jump at such stuff.

His hair bounced along as he jumped during worship. Hehe.

Heng was up on the altar trumming his guitar! Boy did he look cute when he smiled (or laughed). Suppose he can turn his frown the other way round. Saw the way that Pastor Chris make Heng hit it for "Who's got the praise?". That was funny. And it had Heng going all smiley too.

I finally spotted Jemmy! Haha. He was at the back in a red tee. Hopefully he rembers how I look like and he'd better SMS me or I cry ah! And I wonder why I think he looks cute and fierce at the same time..

Pastor Chris made fun of Clair's Flower Shop's guitarist, Liang. Said that he was trying to hit on his 9 year old daughter and Liang thought she was 19. Hag, and he imagined a son to come beat Liang up. So damn funny.

nelle eats world @ 1:33 AM | squished Ron before I died

IF YOU'RE DOWN WITH MY JESUS, PUT YOUR HANDS IN THE AIR AND SAY "YEH"

Pastor Chris had us dance to this rap he made up during service today. I actually enjoyed it and I was groving to it?! But I didn't the last time we were supposed to do it.. Hmm..

WHO'S GOT THE PRAISE

Who's got the praise?
(We've got the praise)
Who you give praise to?
(Jesus)

Give me a J
(J, you've got the J) x2
Give me an E
(E, yo've got the E) z2
Give me an S
(S, S)
Give me a U
(You've got yuor U, U, U, U)
Give me an S
(S, S)

Who's your saviour?
(Jesus)
Who's your healer?
(Jesus)
Who's your lover?
(Jesus)

If you're down with my Jesus
Put your hands in the air
And say Yeh
(Yeh)
Yeh
(Yeh)

Oh...
Yeh x6
Oh...
Yeh x6

R-AGE, R-AGE
R-AGE on fire
We don't need the devil
Cos' the devil is a liar

There ain;t no party like the Holy Ghost party
Cos' the Holy Ghost party won't stop

And on and on it goes.. Isn't the rap fun?

nelle eats world @ 1:24 AM | squished Ron before I died

DRAMA HURTS, ME AND RON.. ER.. FLIRTS? IT's GAY DAY!

Alright! The Drama and Gay Day! How come noone cares about Gay Day?

Anyway, I love Ron. Er, no. I mean for what happened today. Er, I also feel a bit hurt lah.. Well, I'll tell you what happened.

Mr Tsung is such a nag. Bloody gay, Ziyang says. Drama's not that fun with him in-charge. Kumaran's such an irritant. Yeh. Yanni looks kind of fierce. Ron.. *sigh* So innocent looking. It's so damn depressing that ther's a problem with his SIM card so that I cannot SMS him. I miss him! The text messages are the only way I can convey my true message to him because I have no guts to say it out in words!

Tripped over that stupid prop and nearly kena get scolded. Mr Tsung keeps complaining. ARGH! I can't stand him! In fact, ALL of us, Drama Club members can't stand him!

Sheesh, I don't really like the er.. Hema. So sacarstic and hyprocrite. Pretend to be nice.

How come everyone else now knows I have a crush on Ron? Who's been telling others about it?

Anyway, as long as Ron came and I got to see him.. I'm pretty happy with that.

Hah. Still thinking about that bottle Ron threw. Yes, not only the one he JUST threw. Yeh, he threw Fida's bottle a long time ago when I was his apprentice! Haha. This time, Ron "rolled" it across the beam connecting the porch to the language room. Well, we should be able to reach it if it was near the hole in the railing but surprising, Ron rolled it over to the other half of the beam in a straight line! Haha. It didn't even drop!

nelle eats world @ 12:47 AM | squished Ron before I died

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

BEATEN TO THE BORE

Aww.. Back to school! All plain boring Chinese with Mdm Ko first thing in the morning. *sigh* *sucks*

Alright! Good news is that there will be 2 drama club sessions this week! Woohoo! This means double the chance to see *ahem*! :) Whee! *blush* Sheesh.. Maybe. Er. Hope so. So badly want to.. SQUEEZE HIS CHEEKS (even Ziyang)!

I did my math project earlier - right after school. Didn't get to have my lunch because D & T was straight after that at 1.30pm.

I don't like the looks of the D & T teacher, Mr Cheong. He looks so.. I don't know how to put it but it's definitely NOT a compliment! The previous D & T pupils, like Mahdi, said that he was a racist. Yeah, maybe he is. Maybe he thinks that I'm a Malay because I look like one. It's so unfair, my isometric projection drawing was pretty darn okay but Mr Cheong said that it was HORRIBLE! What the bloody freaken hell is this?

Enough about that.

Never met Ziyang at the study area. I left the place because of Da Wei. Hng, say that I'm violent. I may be crazy, jumpy and psychotic; but I'm not violent! Okay,I admit that I am but I wasn't jumping, sitting on hitting him! I was just rantering rubbish and crapping myself out! I made fun of him for bullying Wan Er but he was just laughing at her work (or so it seems). *sigh*

But hey, his smile is damn sweet and charming lor! :) Too bad his attached already and there's no wondering why. His hair! What the! There were 2 ducktails sticking out from the top! Haha. So funny! He looks as if he has 2 devillish horns on his head! Haha.

Guess what? I didn't meet Ziyang at the correct place but.. I met him at Vista Point! Cool eh? Saw him when I was going for tuition. Eh? Ha. I don't know what made me think it was him but it IS him! I SMSed to check and indeed it was.

Oops. Gotta chao. Tuition's coming up and Whee! Drama tomorrow!

nelle eats world @ 5:21 PM | squished Ron before I died

Monday, July 05, 2004

I'M DRIVING ALONG COASTLINE

I'm driving along the coastline
I'm thinking of you
You just keep on crossing my mind
I'm coming to you

I'm just approaching the time
And soon it'll be night
Don't you worry I'll be reaching
But the tide may ride

*So just wait, I'll be coming (x2)
So just wait, I'll be coming to make you run
So just wait, I'll be coming (x2)
So just wait, I'll be coming to
I'll be coming to you

My fuel ain't running out
I'm almost there
And if you're there, I'll be there
I swear I'll be there

*So just wait, I'll be coming (x2)
So just wait, I'll be coming to make you run
(oh yeah)
So just wait, I'll be coming (x2)
So just wait, I'll be coming to
I'll be coming to you

And when it starts to rain
Don't worry I'll be there to take away your pain
And it'll soon start to shine
Then you know I'll be coming to you

So just wait, just don't hurry
So just wait, I'm be reachin'
So just wait, I'll be coming to make you run
(oh yeah)
So just wait, please stop crying
So just wait, I'll be coming
So just wait, I'll me coming to
I'll be coming to you

This song was written by Daniel Heng and his really close friend, Joey Tan (also Maisie's brother), sang it. I happened to be listening to it over and over while waiting to pass the record to Ziyang when we met - but we never did. I'm not quite sure how the lyrics go because the diction wasn't so clear. This will do for now.

Hmm... I'll try to upload the song and play it on this page - IF ONLY SOMEONE WOULD TEACH ME HOW! Anyway, the file's about 5000 KB, it might be too big to upload then. But hey, as being a good blog reader and taking your time to read this entry, you get an offer (not that kind of offer)! Just add me in MSN so that I can send you the record!

MSN address: jeandarknova_jielun@hotmail.com

The above address is just temporary and I'll change the nick to the new address that I'll be using sometime.

Chao.

nelle eats world @ 6:25 PM | squished Ron before I died

MONDAY COOLS

Alright! It's Youth Day! Hmm... The strange thing that happened this morning was that my grandmother actually though there was school and she woke me up! She even though I was late!

Sheesh.. I miss R-AGE. Suddenly, that is. The worship song, "History Maker" appeared in my mind just recently and the chorus had somehow "decided to live" in my head!

HISTORY MAKER (chorus)

*I'm gonna be a History Maker in this land
I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind
I'm gonna stand, I'm gonna run
Into your arms, into your arms again
Into your arms, into your arms again

I even wrote down that part of the song on the back of my foolscap pad! What has gotten into me? Is it - The Holy Spirit? I don't know and I'm not sure.. And I have been drawing drumsets too! I'm crazy!

Have to finish up those last minute work and go for my math tuition and see that weirdo teacher who looks sort of like my cousin, Betrant - Mr Jimmy Lim. Er.. He shows abit of gay traits = metro sexual... Er.. *oops*

Went to check out the "new" house's renovation and it's so YUCKO! Eeeeeee! I didn't even want to follow but I was forced to. Ate lunch at Causeway Point's Cavana. The food menu was a little different than the one in Sembawang. Well, maybe not just a little.. Had honey-grilled boneless chicken - um... Scrumptious!

Okay, dad chasing me to go home and prepare..

Gotta scram!

nelle eats world @ 5:47 PM | squished Ron before I died

Sunday, July 04, 2004

TURNING AROUND

Okay. So Ziyang told me to write a song and express it to.. Er.. You know who. So anyway, here it goes. Don't mind if it's so emo. So mushy. So.. EWWW! Just read it. *Sniff* *Sniff*

ARE|YOU|GOING|TO|TURN|ME|AROUND?

I'm living life without a goal
Soaked through mud from head to toe
And sometimes I feel like just dying (woah-oh)
But you keep on prompting
And I feel your presence and urge to go on
I've gotta keep on trying

*You are like a friend
In needs and times, of a helping hand
And I can't keep on disguising
I can't make believe that I don't deceive (yeah)
Even when times are tough
And it keeps coming and I had enough
Are you going to lend me your shoulder to cry on?

I don't think anyone even cares
It's as if I wasn't there
And I need someone by my side
To help me carry on with my life
And the only person I need is you
The only one I want to guide me is you

*You are like a friend
In needs and times, of a helping hand
And I can't keep on disguising
I can't make believe that I don't deceive (oh no)
Even when times are tough
And it keeps coming back - I had enough
Are you, going to
Going to lend me your shoulder to cry on?

And just when I think I am falling
You might just be the one to make me keep on climbing
You seem so distant and I hardly ever knew you
But it's this feeling, having me on
And when the sun starts to shine again
You're going to be the one who'll bear all my pain
This is the only one I need to question you about
- Is it if you're willing
- Or is it if you want me to stop breaking
Are you going to turn me around?

*You are like a friend
In needs and times, of a helping hand
And I can't keep on disguising
I can't make believe that I don't deceive (I try)
Even when times are tough
And it just keeps coming - I had enough
Are you going to lend me your shoulder
I said are you going to lend me your shoulder
For me, for me to cry on

(I never felt a need like this in my life before
I think that you've struck me to the core
And I think I can't handle it anymore
I need you, need you, need you
Need you to turn me around
Need you to turn my sorrow into joy
Stop my mourning and make it change to the lovin' I need
Just turn me around)

nelle eats world @ 11:10 PM | squished Ron before I died

R-AGE's THE BEST! WARMTH AND CORMFORT NEVER THE LESS!

Sucks. I should have been at R-AGE's 7th aniversary rather than sitting in a huge quiet hall next to Camarine's family. The sermon was so damn boring. Unlike Pastor Ronald's. No other preacher can match up to him! BWAHAHA! He rocks! We all love him. I remember the time he made fun of Lionel and Brian (two very huge-built guys from YA).. Yah, that one was sooooooo funny! The one about the water in the pool being cold and both of them were marching towards the pool in a manly way then when their foot touched the water, they backed off screaming! HAHAHAHAHAHA! Woah! And also about the one where they wanted to play with the doll Candice was holding! "Ah! So cute! Come let's tie her hair, dress her up.." WAHAHAHA! That one was good!

*sigh* Unlike that Pastor Andrew, so boring. Even the worship team didn't have the spunk in them unlike our Uncle Heng Heng Daniel, Johann Tay, Caleb and the rest. There was no fun, no "yeahs", no spirit for the Lord! The place was so cold. The worship songs are kind of for the choir and even the presentations were super lame! The video presentation wasn't like the one we viewed on new year's midnight! Damned! I'm telling myself never to attend Camarine's church services again! ARGH! R-AGE is more likely to be the house of God and that the place seems friendlier and the there was more zest. Even though the place is small, we still have more Young People than The Rock does. YEAH! Make some noise ~ YoHz!

Go, R-AGE! You've got the praise! Whoo!

nelle eats world @ 8:23 PM | squished Ron before I died

COOL CELL, BORING DAY

Yes. The only part of the day which was fun was during the CELL. yes. The part about Timmy barging in and shocking Maisie nearly to death.

Oh ya, forgot to mention something.. Maisie highlighted her hair that she looks like a small high school girl and a cute little dollie! Hahaha.

Jenn in the jacket.
Jenn at the court.
Jenn talking on the phone with his hands inside his shorts.
Jenn comes over.
Jenn starts talking to me and Shin Yee.
Jenn starts questioning.
Jenn sounds funny.
Jenn's hair looks like those not on Barney's.
Jenn sticks his hand into his jacket.
Jenn's jacket's pocket.
Jenn gets my answer.
Jenn says "Bye".
Jenn walks up the stairs.
Jenn seemed sick.
Jenn didn't look good.
Jenn.. Huh? Gotta S-C-R-A-M!

nelle eats world @ 12:45 PM | squished Ron before I died

Saturday, July 03, 2004

I HATE YOU, BUT I LOVE R-AGE

My best friend kept pestering me to go with her to her church's 16th aniversary. "Walau eh!" (sorry must use Tim's quote).. Never give me a peace of mind!

She doesn't give a bloody damn about my own CHURCH's aniversary! Hey, it's R-AGE's 7th aniversary tomorrow and my cousin is singing in the choir! And not forgeting Shin Yee - even though I still blame her for her teasing of Heng. Hey! Hello! I want to attend that service man! What the hell is this? Hello! It's suppose to be my first time attending it because I just came to R-AGE last year! Hey, hey, hey. She doesn't even care. NO.. SHE DOESN'T.. GOD-DAMNED!

I told Jenn about this though. He sort of sounded as if he was pleading me to go for our 7 years of youth ministry. But what the heck? Camarine doesn't even give a shit. Forces me to go and threatens me like hell. So I have to. I'm doing this for my sake. Yes. Or God's. She said this which hurts me very much: "Your mentor's sad but I'm happy!" What the hell. I wish I could just kill her.

What the BLOODY FREAKEN HELL! I'm gonna scram now. Can't take this nonsense anymore.

nelle eats world @ 7:31 PM | squished Ron before I died

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